ezika esmariana

Erm…cakap pasal the rose.. everybody must be thinking dat i want to talk about flowers….roses…actually tak.i just want to share with u all about the series taiwan drama named-the rose.I felt that the drama was quite interesting but i dont know what do u feel or think when u watch it. The Rose has 23 cds.Guess how many days i took to finish up all the cds?just 2 days for 19 cds.another 4 i took about 2 days because i watched it during the week days..i spent all my weekends watched the whole drama.not all.almost all. All my life during that weekends only with my room, my laptop n my bed. when i was tired, i finished up the cd,and i slept on my bed. After i wake up, i went to my desk, i opened my laptop, i continued watched the cd.My friends asked me to go out with them to pasar malam. And i said, i dont want to. I just want to finish up my cds..hahhahahahha….and at last i went to pasar malam but my heart…already fell in love with my laptop or actually with the movie…hahhahah… Actually the rose is about a family.they live with their mom who was a famous actress. They had different father. 1 day, there was a gurl came and confessed that she was also their mom’s daughter.the gurl had make the 2 guy in that house fall in love with her..who was her elder’brother’ and one her own younger brother…if u want to know about it and how was the ending, dun forget to watch it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today, around two days ago,i didnt know what happened to me?erm…very sleepy and tired…decided to stay up with sarahbut at last end up by sleeping at sarah’s apartment…hahaha…i was boring also..i dont know..i dont know what i was supposed to do to make me happy and make my life interesting..huhuhuuhuhuh…i’m feel lonely right now…and always need somebody to talk to but don’t know who..and every time i feel like this, that is the use of having boyfriend..hahaahaha..at least there is somebody to be with and be beside me..but actually…its good for not having boyfriend..i dont need to think about him and i’m free to make any decision..hahaha..actually when i was with my boyfriend before,i was also free to make my own decision and he didnt ever think of myself and what i was gonna do with mylife…hahahha..so..its just the same…the difference is i dont have somebody to talk when i’m feel like this…so…its good to be single and if i want a boyfriend, i will think twice coz…the whole year with so much suffer and tears always make me scared to be in the love matters again..and what makes me feel really2 bad when i’m the one who was so loyal to my love ones…

Hahahahhaa..don’t misunderstood for what i’m saying in the last i wrote in this blog( Like vs. Love)…hahaaa…why i have to confess?erm…today, one of my friends,R…he said that i’m now starting missing somebody and in confusing now either i like or love somebody..hahhaha..i was just laughing when he said that..i said no..i’m not in love or like sbody..i really2 do..hahha..he didnt believe me..wuteverrrr…but…the truth is i don’t like or love somebody rite now…my feeling is free rite now…neither love nor like..i’m just writing about it..just some of my opinion about love or like..so,don’t misunderstood about me,k Mr.R?

Like vs. Love….what is the difference between like and love?what do you think?for me…if you like somebody, doesn’t mean you love them.Its hard to understand our own feeling. Sometimes the feeling makes us confuse to make our own choices. Love actually for no reason. You don’t know why do you love them.But in somehow, you will feel that kind of feeling, really2 strange feeling. Even you met the person for the first time, or in other words, love from the first sight..you will feel that kind of feeling.Sometimes, we will reallize that we love that person, when suddenly they dissappear. We will feel lonely and always hope that person will be beside us again, rite?Sometimes you feel that you love that person because you love to see their eyes, their pretty face for guy, how handsome they are for a gurl or anything….that’s not call love…because if you love that person even the person a thief or a killer, you will love them…so..figure out what kind of feeling actually deeply inside of you?Love or Like?………………………….

don’t throw your back to love when its already in front of you,

Don’t drive it away from you because if u did someday,

You will think again why you let the love fly away when it once wnet to you,

So, treasure the one who really-really loves you because it is not easy to find that kind of person and usually he comes once in a lifetime………

my bday cake

************************************************************************************** erm..alloha…surprised?okey…last night, i was going out with sarah n sya for a dinner. we droped by at 7 Eleven Sg. Ramal to buy the water from the machine not so far from the 7E…suddenly, sya decided not following us but just want to stay at the apartment because she had microp test tomorrow. So, its ok…we could buy her a dinner..n then we sent sya back to the apartment. We decided to have our dinner at F1.. we ate there n have a chat n a gossip..hahahahahha…biaserlah…n then, sarah said she gave a treat…hahaha..thanx sarah.. thanx a lot..she said as my bday present…we went back after that..we arrived at uniten…n we went to my apartment..i opened the door…n my apartment was dark..i was wondering actually where is every body…but nevermind…sarah with me..heheheh…we talk n talk…n i opened my door n suddenly…happy bday to u..happy bday to u..happy bday to shima…happy bday to u…here they are!!!!!!!!!they bought me a cake….there were zatul, dalia, sarah, mai IT, aisah IT,niet n sya……thanx korang..thanx alot… i don’t know what to say actually..but thanx a lot….dalia n zatul bought me a beautiful lamp..thanx my dear friends…niet bought me a nice watch…thanx niet… ***********I LOVE YOU ALL MY FRIENDS….THANX A LOT….A LOT OF HUGS FROM ME**************

erm..yesterday was my birthday…nothing interesting..my little n youngest brother..sangatlah kelakar..i think..about 2 weeks b4 my birthday, he’s already bought my present..hahhaha..my mom said..he’s really2 eagered n interested to buy my present…nak tau tak kat mane he’s bought my present.. at pasar malam..hahaha..but its ok..yg penting die ingat my birthday…dan die ikhlas belikan hadiah tue..really sweet actually..my youngest bro br standard 3…die belikan pin tudung…sepasang…erm..my bro…malam b4 my birthday, bila tepat kul12 tgh malam, tepat seluruh rakyat Malaysia laungkan Merdeka!!!!!banyaklah mess wish happy birthday yang dapat..sampai naik lenguh tangan balas ckp thanx..but thanx sgt actually for anybody that remembered my birthday…tomorrow morning,what i meant, pagi 31.8.05, after sembahyang subuh, my bro dh bangun…mase buka pintu bilik, suddenly there was a box in front of my door. i took it n then i brought that box to my living room. i sat n i opened it slowly..i saw a t-shirt from my younger sis…keychain..n a little, tiny n cute box that was wrapped wiith colourful paper..i took it n really hard to tear up the wrapping paper…hahahhaha…when i opened it,i really surprised my bro choose that kind of present…yelah..my bro baru standard3..dah pandai pilih hadiah camtu…but..really sweet..after that, my dad suddenly bought a cake…dah lame die tak belikan cake..thanx dad….

***the most important is…when THEY remember about ur birthday…becoz birthday is a a part of u…sthing about u..when THEY remember it, so THEY remember u..right?******

THANX FOR THOSE WHO REMEMBERED MY BIRTHDAY COZ I KNEW YOU REMEMBERED ME………..HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!